But when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears

i wish that there was someway that i cld patch up all the hurting hearts in the world.. or at least ard me. including my own.

Hello friends,

I am relocating to... http://joyfullove.wordpress.com

Somehow the link is not working. RAWR.

cheers!
minxun

So much time has passed since the last I posted. School has started and I still haven't cleared my reflections on the time spent during the holidays. It also seems like a good time to create a new blog.

Since then, I still haven't accomplished the things that I listed down except re-doing our room. Indeed, there is quite a bit of regret about how I didn't do the things I wanted to do during the holidays, but let's look at the brighter side. There are many things that I have done.

1) Working at WingTai:
This was a very... torturous experience. Through this experience, I learnt alot, grew alot and really come to appreciate studying life. I didn't have a very good pay, in fact I was underpaid and overworked(which is what I tell everyone =P I still feel that now). I didn't have very good superiors. Which was the reason why I was overworked. But having these factors made me realise the reality about the industry and made me question why I work or do the things that I do. The crux was that, as much as my superiors made me do "saikang", if I didn't do it, someone down the industry "foodchain" would suffer. Things do come around to you as well, so why not do a good job in the first place? Well, eventually I quit and left them to their own devices.

2) Church Camp @ Meleka/Malacca 2008
One big humbling camp for me. Somehow some way, through the years of captainship I guess, I think I've become a very proud person. Always thinking that I could complete everything on my own. But the Lord taught me and brought me so low during the camp, letting me know that my strength is not enough, my needs and my wants are the ALL. Thinking back, I thought very childish thoughts during that time. But I'm glad that it turned out well and the campers enjoyed it :)

3) Saturday's Anniversary 2008
FIVE FIVE FIVE FIVE FIVE. I will not forget this experience. What a rollercoaster. All I have to say is, "Thank You Lord for being there every step of the way. When I didn't know what to say, when I didn't know how to react, Lord, I hope that what I said and how I reacted came from You and not from my evilness. I really wanted to say the right things and do the right things that would reflect Your glory and would be pleasing to You."

4) VCF (FOC)^2 2008
What a refreshing and enjoyable camp. :) Thoroughly enjoyed myself and enjoyed being with God and learning more about my Lord. Made MANY new and good friends with seniors and fellow freshies. It was also like healing for me, from all the "battering" from the 3 major activites above. Really glad that I went for the camp. It was also the start of my uni life in a way I guess. It made a really great start to NUS life.


OKAY reflections done. :) Next step will be deciding about changing a blog site. But do anticipate a change somehow. ;)

Many days have come and gone since the VCF (FOC)^2 camp ended, and I still haven't blogged on my thoughts and learning experiences from the camp. Come to think of it, it's been more than 6mths since my break started and it's about the end in 2wks and I still haven't blogged about my learning experiences during this time. So I shall attempt to finish everything in this one sitting.

I have to admit, I probably haven't put this long break to good use. The timeline of what I've been doing looks something like that

Jan-March: Working at WingTai, Marcoms G2000
March-June: planning Church Camp 2008 and Sat Anniversary and tuitioning
June 8th-11th: Church camp in Malacca
July 5th: Sat Anniversary
July 14th-17th: VCF camp

As you all can see, I didn't do much. Now for the little things. Here's a list of what I wanted to do during the break:

Visit all the musuems in Singapore
Go on a photo "field trip" and be tourist to Singapore for a day(or two)
Go to Sentosa
Go for a holiday overseas with friends
Re-do my room with my sister/pack it up

ALL of them I haven't done. So right now, I'm having rather mixed feelings. Cause during this time, i've done quite a bit of things and have learnt alot and grown as well. But right now I do not have the time to elaborate and blog about the matter. But i have to say that I really thank God for everything that He has given me, great experiences and good times. And I can say that I am not dreading school. So... til sometime soon.. Peace Out. =)

my ideal time table goes something like this....

Hosanna : Hillsong United
Verse 1
I see the King of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Chorus
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

Verse 2
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what is Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hosanna

12.

What tuition fees will be charged to students doing DDPs?  Is there any difference in the tuition fee structure compared with the single degree programmes?

AY2006/07 cohort and before:

For the AY2006/07 cohort, students in a DDP will pay the prevailing tuition fee of the Faculty/School offering the home course (see Question 7 of FAQs) for all five years of study.

The prevailing tuition fee refers to the “Direct Payment” amount after taking into consideration the Tuition Grant provided by the Ministry of Education. For more information on fees, please click here.

AY2007/08 cohort and after:

For the AY2007/08 cohort, students in a DDP will pay the prevailing tuition fee of the Faculty/School offering the home course (see Question 7 of FAQs) for the first four years of study.

For the fifth year of study, in view of limited or no Tuition Grant from the Ministry of Education, the fees payable are pegged as follows:

• DDPs where one of the degrees is in Engineering or Computing (except for any DDPs involving Law) : two times the prevailing fee
  
• All other DDPs (including all DDPs involving Law) : four times the prevailing fee

However, in view of the financial implications for students, NUS will offer scholarships to help offset 50% of the total tuition fee in the fifth year. In other words,

• For DDPs where one of the degrees is in Engineering or Computing, students will only need to pay the prevailing tuition fee of the Faculty/School offering the home course (except for any DDPs involving Law);
• For all other DDPs, students will pay two times the prevailing tuition fee of the Faculty/School offering the home course (including all DDPs involving Law).

quick post! song's been ringing in my head.

FRIENDS!! Keep the date free! I want you all to come!

watch out for more!

in just a span of a wk or so.. i've been so near the edge so many times. first so close to giving up. then so close to grabbing and believing in the tiny bit of hope. now it is all dashed again.


Oh Lord,
is love so wrong? it is your greatest commandment. yet. it gives the most pain.

Oh Lord,
when's it going to be my turn? or is it too late? too many times i've treating love as a game. am i being punished now?

Oh Lord,
teach me to love. teach me love.



Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you




Oh Lord,
I need to know what to do now.

baby yetis and toupe for the most interesting guesses. comment by pat was the most innovative. and comment by delph and oneloveridin was closest.

in case you all don't know what i'm talking about.. refer to post named U.nidentified F.urry O.bject or http://danseurdepluie.livejournal.com/31824.html

for the answer, type in "angora" into google image search for your answer.


the angora ________ is taking over the heartlands!

A specimen of this strange furry object was spotted in a HDB district in the town of Singapore.









any guesses?

"How did we end up like this, Keith? How did we end up so broken?"

"Cause we all fell in love, and at some point, the people we love, stopped loving us back."


think it really applies to us all. but it's what we do after that really matters.



edit: i really didn't think i'd really feel like this when i actually posted this. but that scenario really really happens. and up til recently only, it's happened to me only once. well.. it's another story now. but it's true again. that what we do after that really matters. old wounds heal, with a scar or without. but heal none the less. whether we choose to be afraid of falling and being broken again determines if we finally get the one we love, to love us back. or, if we can find someone who would love us more than we'd ever love back.


but that is just being plain selfish.

"I bet you wish you could do that and not suffer the consequences...."

that's right. that is so so so right. i was going to make a joke about it. but a sadder thought crossed my mind.


why am i the only one suffering the consequences?
what am i not doing well enough?
what have i not done enough?
why? why me? why me all the time?



it not just her. everyone else.

i just need to smile. everyone needs to see my smile. wants to see my smile. all i can do for everyone now is to smile.
smile smile smile smile. BIG SMILE
.but the pain's so real.

it's easy when you're playing hide and seek.



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i keep quiet. not cause i understand you, or agree with you.

do you think it's right to double your expectations on me just because the other person is not meeting it?

i'm sick and tired. really sick and tired of all this. I'm going to be NINETEEN! you all always say that at this age you all were trying to be self sufficient and doing things for the family and everything. why don't you all then, just leave me alone and let ME be self sufficient. why don't you stop intruding and interfering?

why must you always stop me from doing what i want? why must i always be the one to back down?

respect. have you given me any? trust. definitely not.

the whole day's been a mess. real big mess.

can't wait to move out.

thank you all for being so concerned about me. =) (note to people who doesn't know who i'm referring to, read my last post, comments included).

this is to the anonymous person who tagged whom i really don't know who?
Thanks for your concern and advice though you probably don't know me. =) Really grateful. But if you do know me in real life, you'd know why i keep a blog. It is indeed for the purpose of mulling. i do count my blessings constantly and am honestly thankful and appreciative of the family and friends and the support i get from them. If you were one of them, you'd understand. I do understand where you are coming from as well, but from a stranger to another, i hope you won't be so harsh on someone else you don't know. For the simple reason, because you really don't know. =) I am not blaming you, because i understand and accept your comments. Just a warning to you, that other people may not.

to my dearest friends,
i am fine now.. thank you all for the concern =) i am truly and thoroughly blessed. and i just can't wait to share it with you guys. i think i needn't say more, cause what needs to be said, you all know what i will say. you all know what i will do and have always been doing. you all know what to expect. it'd come soon =) LOVES.

just proves my point.


turned  the best week i had in months horrid just like that..



or maybe it's really me. maybe i just ain't good enough.